Expectations and heartaches.

Hey everyone, I hope you all are good. If you are really into my blog, you probably noticed that I haven’t come here to write any thing in weeks, yeah. I’ve just really been off the radar for sometime, I uninstalled most of my social media. I reinstalled WordPress to talk to you guys and maybe because I can’t sleep lol.

This is 12:27am and I’m writing lol. I have been thinking a lot recently. About how you never know what’s going to happen the next second, you never really know what to expect.

When I was 6 or 7, there was this man we used to take along in my mom’s car with his daughter. His daughter, my brother and I attended the same school. The man was always worried about his daughter and sad he couldn’t really provide so much, he obviously really cared for her. He never left her alone with anyone and at that age I somehow understood, the world isn’t all that safe. We stopped by his house one day and he didn’t come out with his daughter so my mum and I were bothered, my brother was very little then, I doubt if he understood what was going on.

His wife told us he slumped in the bathroom and that he wasn’t strong enough to go out with us that day. I was sad. The next time my mum saw him, she advised him to think less and stuff like that but about a month or two after that conversation he died. I didn’t know how to feel because I was a little young but I remember him all the time, even now. He is immortal to me because he was a hero to his daughter for the little time they spent together.

He tried to always protect her and care for her in the littlest ways possible and I will remember him for that for the rest of my life. I’m sorry I didn’t warn you earlier about how sad the story was going to end. We don’t all get the endings we desire some times and it’s okay. It’s really what you do with the time you spend that matters. He definitely made a mark in my heart. I’ll just describe my heart as having thumb prints and well his made it there.

This year definitely taught me that you can’t decide what happens next but you can decide your friendships and the decisions you have made. Don’t stress. I can make a to- do list and not even achieve the plans I have in the list. It’s honestly funny. I shouted my way into this year. I hugged people and congratulated them and man, If I could go back in time, I’ll take that back and warn them about the danger looming. I made plans to do exciting new things this year and well I sat in my room for the most of the year. 2020 is the real jungle. We lost friends and family. Corona virus, End Sars protests and many more.

But somehow, even if this year was the absolute worst, I can’t deny the fact that I learnt a lot of things. This is not an end of the year post so I won’t be talking about all I learnt just yet. Yes please people, wait for it.

In all honesty, not all of us will have people screaming our names with concert spotlights and flashing cameras and maybe unconscious people but people around you are going to always remember you for something. You’ll leave a mark in people’s hearts and that’s immortality to me.

Love deeply, show and tell the people you love that you love them, acknowledge your feelings, eat, pray, grow and be the best version of yourself you can be and yeah, that’s it, have fun and do the things you want to do. Make your mark not only on earth but also in people’s hearts.

That’s all I can think of, so I hope you guys enjoyed reading this article or whatever it is. It’s funny how I’ve been trying hard to write something for you guys and it just flowed out freely this night lol. I honestly just put all my feelings into this. You guys can tell me how this year has been for you in my comment section but if it’s too personal, you can probably send me an email if you want to. Ps: it’s only if you want to.

Thanks for reading.

KAIIT 2000 n somethin. You should probably listen to it.

Until next time.

6 Comments

  1. Your posts always sends positive vibes my way🙆. For this I say Thank You and God Bless you immensely with more wisdom.

    2020 has been crazy, it a true confirmation that no one knows tomorrow… But we’ve got to Trust GOD and keep moving👌✌💓

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  2. This year has been nothing close to easy or happy. Most people suggest gratitude, others suggest reflection. For me, I’m holding onto the magic thats in all i have left.i.e (the love I have for my)my family, my friends and hopefully, hope.
    We just have to keep on keeping on. Well done babe.🌹🌹

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    1. Holding on to the magic is just fine. These people and things keep us going. Thank you Precious💕

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